Eavesdropping, Baby Monitors, and My Mommy Motto

When my son (Crazy #2) was a baby, he made diaper changing one of my biggest mommy battles.  He flopped around like a fish out of water and kicked with far too much enthusiasm… the little punk would not sit still!   To this day I sweat a little when I think of how I used to struggle to change a 6 month old’s diaper.  And one diaper changing moment in particular stands out above all others…

I vividly remember struggling to maintain my cool with a cute, cuddly little chunk of a baby boy.

His laugh filled the room as he wiggled around on his changing pad, and his tiny tongue poked out as he repeatedly sprayed me with his baby raspberries.

To him, this was fun, and we were playing a game.  To me, it was a job, and he was preventing me from doing it swiftly.

 

 

I paused and took a deep breath… then glanced around the room (for what, I don’t know… maybe an extra set of hands?) and caught sight of the green light on the baby monitor.  Instantly I had a flash back to when my husband and I had overheard one of our neighbor’s phone conversations over our baby monitor.  After we listened for a good 10 minutes (and after realizing that it was a fairly dull conversation), we decided to change frequencies… but not before realizing how easy it would be for someone else to listen to us, as well.

The memory of conversations being intercepted by a baby monitor gave me a jolt.  What if someone COULD hear me right now?  Would they hear the exhaustion and frustration in my voice?  Would I sound like a total jerk?

This was a pivotal parenting moment for me, because I realized that when no one is watching, it’s easy to let our guard down and show our anxiety.  But the second someone comes into ear shot, we become fully aware of how we are acting toward our kids.   We take a breath.  Focus on relaxing and then proceed.

I wanted to be THAT mom all of the time!  So, from that point froward, I used the monitor to remind me of who I really am and what’s in my heart.  No matter how tired  or frustrated I was, I silently told myself that someone could see me.

After just a few months of doing this, I was able to regulate on my own without the help of the monitor metaphor.  This realization caused be to become keenly aware of the mom I desperately wanted to be – I just needed a little nudge in the right direction.

In the end, that $45 baby monitor was the catalyst for one of my best tools for motherhood…. my mommy motto:

“Dance like no one is watching, and parent like someone is.”

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P.S.  We can’t forget that we really are being watched…by our kids.  And their experience is far more important than what a stranger thinks.

P.P.S. I oddly miss the diaper changes now… mostly because now he’s no longer peeing in a diaper but rather peeing on the walls instead.  Ahhh… motherhood really is glamorous, isn’t it?  ;)  Want more potty talk?   You can read  a little about my journey down the potty training road HERE.

May 13, 2013 - 12:31 pm

Kiran - I’ve got diapers to change over here. Come on over! I like your motto. Totally true.

May 15, 2013 - 12:25 pm

Heather Bird - Awe, I love this motto! I’m totally guilty of keeping way more control when others are around. I need to adopt this as well. Thanks for sharing!

May 15, 2013 - 3:01 pm

Jennifer Chaney - Haha, Kiran! If I change diapers at your house, will you wipe down the bathroom walls in mine? ;)
Heather, i know! I’m so glad you know what i’m talking about. :)

One Photo :: the dance of tiny feet.

Photographing small children is a bit like interval training. I’m either dashing around trying to keep up with quick little legs, or I’m sitting on the ground waiting for the next thing to happen.  The younger the kids, the more I seem to wait.

Little ones have their own agenda, and they really don’t care what we have in mind.  When it’s time to eat, it’s time to eat.  And the world will have to stop until this new project is complete.   It’s not like they’re suddenly going to say , “hey, I forgot you were trying to photograph me being awesome… let me finish this one last Cheerio so we can get back to business!”   Nope.  That never happens.  And I’m grateful.

Their slowing down forces me to slow down.  To pause.  To look around while I wait.  I take these lulls in my sessions to find that one photo…. the magical, layered photo that reveals a little more the longer you look at it.  

Here is this Palo Alto Family’s One Photo:

Family Photography in Palo Alto CA

The feet are where the crux of the magic lies.  Both children have their signature pose.  On the left, she has one foot up and one down.  On mom’s right, he has his feet crossed.  Two positions they seem to hold at all times throughout the day… no matter what they’re doing.

Now, layer on Dad working in the adjacent room – even though he’s not physically in the picture, he’s involved because this is what he sees when he walks out of his office.   His wife, mother of his two wonderous children, is sitting in-between them, turning side to side as she alternates between helping each of them with their snacks.  If we look at the floor we see the remaining evidence of their hunger.  Which was soon lapped up by their two very loving, and mildly skittish, rescue dogs… yet another layer in the deeper story this picture tells.

This more than just a photo of cute, dangling feet.  This is history.  Their history.   So much is said in one photo.  So much to recall and remember.  I’m happy to sit and wait for children to finish eating, if I am granted access to moments like this.  My heart is happy.  :)

 

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P.S. My Beginning Photography for Moms class for the San Francisco Bay Area was fantastic!  I’ll be doing another one Saturday, June 15th.  Email me if you have questions or register HERE. (Only 8 spots!)

It Can Wait :: It’s Time to Put Down Your Phone

I got my first iPhone back in 2008, and it changed my life.  Not only was I suddenly super hip, but this slick, magical, handheld box from the technology Gods made me insanely connected.  I was always checking email (not because I was expecting an email, mind you, but merely because I could check email), or I was updating Facebook and Twitter from my fancy social device.  Oh yes, and I chatted on it, too.  I called pretty much anyone who would talk to me… as long as they were on the same carrier as I was.

Fast forward a few years and my ridiculously connected life looked a little like this:  my cell phone was always with me,  resting on the kitchen counter was my iPad with a shiny new cover (What?  You don’t buy a new one every couple of months because they’re pretty?), a laptop whirring in the living room, and my home office computer springing to life every time someone walked by (almost as if beckoning me to come visit Amazon.com or Zappos).  If you wanted to talk, I was just a phone call away… or a text… or an email… or a FB post… or a twitter message.

I was clearly addicted to being connected… that is, until last fall.

At the end of the summer last year, I took my oldest, Crazy #1, shopping for back to school clothes.  We were actually able to visit a plethora of clothing stores without her passing out from boredom (very unlike her dad).  We spent a few hours bopping around downtown Walnut Creek’s Broadway Plaza and having some serious mommy-daughter time, and then stopped at Auntie Anne’s for a gluten filled treat for my daughter.

After sitting down for a few minutes I picked up my phone to check in… you know, in case something incredibly important happened between now and the last time I checked it 15 minutes ago.

But something caused me to put my phone down.  I’m not sure what it was… maybe it was the sight of my growing daughter, happily munching on her butter laden soft pretzel sticks, and the realization that this is our time together – I needed to be here with her… not on my phone.  

I asked her if it was okay that I check my email.  She looked up at me, butter dripping down her wrist, and said “no.”  

I think my heart skipped several beats because it took me a moment to process what just happened.  Did she say, “no”?  

OMG.  She did!  I was stunned and slowly dropped my phone back into my purse.  Upon seeing this, she got up, quietly drifted over to me and gave me a deep, lingering hug. OMG. Did she just give me a hug for putting my phone away?

It took everything I had not to start crying right there.  My crazy, shopaholic daughter cared if I check my phone.  She cares if I’m sitting with her at the table and not talking to her.  Holy cow.  That’s it, isn’t it?  Of COURSE she cares if I’m engaged with her.  Of COURSE she cares that I talk with her and not bow my head and click away on my phone chatting with people several states away on Facebook.  Who wouldn’t?

Think about it… how annoyed do we get with other adults who do that to us?  And here we are, everyday, tapping away on our cell phones and putting a barrier in between us and our kids.  The thought of what it must feel like pains me.  She’s little.  She’s sitting there thinking we’re on a special date together, and I have the audacity to bust out my phone on the off chance that I got a text message from my BFF?  Who, I might add, has kids of her own and would totally understand if I didn’t get back to her right away.

Sadly, I never stopped long enough to put myself in my kid’s shoes.  But ever since our Auntie Anne’s date last fall,  I declared my home a cell-phone-free zone during our peak after school hours and will regularly leave my phone at home if we go out.

If you take just a moment and ask yourself how you’re affecting your kids, you’ll likely realize the same thing I did… it’s not worth it.  

It. Can. Wait.

There are very few things that are more important than bonding with our kids right now.  And if something else is more important, the person trying to get a hold of you isn’t  going to email, are they?  They’ll call.  Twice.  I promise.  :)

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P.S.  Now when my kids see my phone come out of my purse, they instantly ask if I’m going to take a picture… I think I prefer it that way.

P.P.S.  This is the dress Crazy #1 tried to get me to buy as one of her back to school outfits… not only is it a million sizes too large for her, it really wouldn’t fly at her school.  Apparently they have “wardrobe rules”.  I’m fairly certain a frilly, strapless gown would fall into the do-not-wear-ever-category.

April 30, 2013 - 1:00 pm

Tracy Hill - Jennifer…there are tears in my eyes right now! While, I do not have kids, I too was “too connected and too accessible.” I work and travel a lot. I decided that my husband deserved my attention without the “connectivity.” I love this story!

So…if you need me, email me. *Wink Wink.” xoxo

May 1, 2013 - 4:47 pm

Jennifer Chaney - Ah Tracy, you’re so sweet… and smart. :) I emailed you last night. ;)

Beginning Photography Class for Moms

In this introductory class, I’ll show you how you can get great pictures with any camera; a DSLR, Point and Shoot, or even your iPhone!

Good photography is not about having a fancy camera, it’s about knowing how to find good light, a good location, and how to best frame your subject.

This is an hour and a half class, and  you will learn simple tricks to great photos. At the end of the hour lecture we’ll head outside for a bit of show and tell. We will walk around, and I’ll show you how to find the best places to set up your kids for great photos!


When: April 27 @ 10am
Location: downtown Walnut Creek
Cost: 75.00
Only 12 seats (1 spot left!)

to register: click

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P.S. As of yet, I don’t have a DSLR (Fancy Camera) workshop lined up, but I plan on one in May or June.  Sign up HERE to get class announcements.

The joys of motherhood…

When the kids are finally in bed, the kitchen clean, and the ringing in your ears has stopped, you get to exhale.  Take a moment to enjoy your life that was made exponentially better by the additon of those little tornadoes… even if it’s exponentially more crazy.

This motherhood quote reminds me to exhale and be grateful… for my children and the silence. :)

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Bubble baths, swings and a sentimental mommy :: photographing family love

A few weeks ago, I posted a lovely Danville Saturday Morning photo session that somehow morphed into a Family Life session.  This happened because, when talking with this mama, it became quite clear that her sentimental heart was barely being contained in her petite frame.  She told me beautiful, moving stories of her daughter, husband and distant relatives.  With each story I asked myself, “does she know what her love looks like?”  It’s radiating off of her, and her eyes brightly shine when she speaks of her family.  I wondered,  ”does she see what I see?”

And that is the very core of my photography and how I view my families.  I’m constantly searching for the moments that move their hearts, and I ask myself – what makes them love the way they do?  I want, nay, need to show them what their feelings look like.

Our love for our families is dynamic.  And since we can’t step outside of ourselves to see this, I’ve made it my mission to show you what your love looks like… statically.  

Curling up on a couch reading a story about a Greek lamb has a completely differently meaning when the couch you’re sitting on was the very same couch you crawled upon as a child.  Walking around her home and hearing the stories about her furniture’s history was a special treat for me.  I believe family heirlooms should be enjoyed and not tucked away upon a shelf left to gather dust.  And this mom has taken that same philosophy to a whole new level.  She inspires me.

They sit in front of this giant mirror and practice yoga together.  Today, her daughter wasn’t in the mood for it.  She was struggling with putting on her socks and was insistent on doing it by herself.  But ultimately, her struggle ended with tears.  And like magic, Mom was quickly able to restore the balance and quell the bubbling storm that is a toddler who just lost the battle with a sock.

The rustic rope swing is tied high up in one of the many towering, old oak trees that cover their property.  A lot of time is spent outdoors, and the swing provides entertainment for daughter and dad – mom was a little less enthusiastic about going for a ride on it.  (Understandably so… I would leave that to the kids and dads, too!)   But she watches with excitement and beams with the love of a mother.   When I got home and saw that there was a rainbow in this picture, I sighed.  It so fitting since this little girl is their angel.  She’s the light of their lives and seeing her floating over a rainbow couldn’t be more fitting.

 Whether they’re being pensive or playful, children are honest.  And sometimes we have to just ride the emotion waves and let them feel what they’re feeling.  I think that’s one of the most beautiful things about children… they know no other way than to express themselves authentically.

 And then there is the bathtub… She  reminds me of a little princess that doesn’t know she’s a princess.  And it makes my heart smile.

I’ll leave you with this one last image.  I’ve said it before, and it’s worth saying again, mom and dad are where family started. Honor it.

Thank you my sweet Danville family for an awe inspiring morning.  I left happier and lighter.  And these pictures take me right back to that place every time I look at them.  xoxoxo!

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P.S. This little girl is the inspiration behind my next article about embracing the emotion.  Be sure to check back or join me over on Facebook.  :)

 

April 1, 2013 - 6:40 pm

keri bryant - Oh Em gee. Fave session yet or at least up there in top 3. The princesses reflection in the mirror? Oh, just yum. You are amazing, girl.
Your number-one stalker :) :)

April 2, 2013 - 11:14 am

Jennifer Chaney - Oh girl… you know I love ya! Thank you, Keri!

April 2, 2013 - 4:27 pm

Elke - Pure magic!!!!!

April 2, 2013 - 8:17 pm

Jennifer Chaney - Thank you Elke! They’re pretty fabulous, aren’t they. xoxo

April 4, 2013 - 9:42 pm

Charisse - Beautiful images as always Jennifer.

April 11, 2013 - 7:16 pm

Jennifer - Beautiful photos. I adore the last one. I also loved reading what you wrote at about why you love doing this kind of photography.

April 12, 2013 - 8:47 am

Erin Witkowski - I adore these! you are such an inspiration. I am trying to figure a way to get you to NY :) love these!

April 12, 2013 - 8:51 am

Jennifer Chaney - I’m so moved by all of your comments… thank you!